This Winter ushered a time of moving through awkward awareness. I really felt the affects of what this season can bring. In November, I remember moving in to my emotions. I was filtering a lot of information from what I had been through in the last four years of school at the Reno Psychic Institute. I felt the need to integrate who I was before school and what I had learned, with who I was now and how I wanted to move forward. I felt quite flummoxed in trying to “figure” this out. It became apparent that thinking through this was not going to work. I was just going to have to give it all time.
Revived and Volunteering. Sierra Buttes Trail Stewardship
Additionally, I had just changed jobs. I was working from home for my new gig as well as offering my clairvoyant consultations. Suddenly, time was mine to make of it. After years and years of having jobs to attend that held schedules and deadlines, structuring time based on my interests was, well, scary. I didn't totally understand how to structure my day based on competing priorities as well as take advantage the unstructured time was offering. Being free but responsible in this way was super confusing to me.
By this time it was mid December. It was cold, snowy, and dark in my Truckee/Tahoe, California, homeland. Hard emotions thrive in those conditions and there was no diversion to hide my attention. Well, I came up with one: nature. I was going nowhere fast trying to put all the emotions of what I was processing into some comprehensible package. I decided it was time to dedicate myself to the outdoors. If I skied as much as possible or went on my nighttime Snow Excursions (a girl, her mukluks, warm gear, backpack with goodies, headlamp and some solid quiet time in nature) I could give myself the time and space to process… and maybe have some real fun in the process. Heck, maybe that is what I really needed anyway. Well, I wouldn't know unless I tried.
Everyday I prioritized play. I skied a lot and clomped in the snow a lot. Over time, lots of it, I noticed stress and emotions that I no longer needed finally releasing from my previously held tension. The view was not yet clear but that did not matter. Having fun and being in nature revived my spirit. It was my ally in my fight to renew myself, whatever the heck that was going to mean.
Today I asked for a tarot card that would give me insight on the transition from Winter to Spring. I am feeling notably more energetic and creative, enjoying my role in my job as well as my work as a psychic medium. As I shuffled the deck and pulled the card, the lyrics from the Brady Kids rang in my ears.
“When it's time to change, you've got to rearrange who you are into what you're gonna be. Sha na na na, na na na na na, sha na na na na Sha na na na, na na na na na, sha na na na na” -Brady Kids
Then, I pulled the Four of Cups. When I saw the card I smiled because I was that person going within, diving in to emotions and self-centered on my process. Now, I am ready and grateful to take on the opportunity of looking up at what is in front of me, on the horizon. I am ready to volunteer for my favorite non profit groups, Sierra Buttes Trail Stewardship and The Tahoe Food Hub, as I have the past few summers. I am ready to push on and learn more in my job and hopefully be a valued member of the team. I am ready to do more readings, share with more blog posts, and offer classes on beginning psychic, medium, and meditation skills.
Spring is a time when we get to ask ourselves how we want to contribute to our family, friends, work, and philanthropic communities. What have we learned from the inward focus of the Winter season that we can now use to help those around us? What can we do to make our section of the world, or larger, a better place? The Four of Cups is asking us to look up from our comfort zone, be open, and use this time to give and receive the opportunities that are waiting for us.