Goodness, this new year-long program I started last November at school has been rough! I think I am in the second phase, of which I am grateful. Phase 1 was all about being the affect of change. Basically, my spirit was changing so much that my body could not keep up. I would spend days on the couch, barely able to move. The only thing I wanted to do was eat toast, drink La Croix Pomplemousse, and watch Deadliest Catch. This combo got me through about 4 months of taking things day by day. Now, Phase 2 and my life is making a bit more sense. Instead of being on the couch all day, I am moving and doing things like a "normal" person but my sleep at night is not as restful as I would hope.
Being psychic is not determined by certain times in the day. You don't clock in and out of this work, it's 24-7 in every sense of the term. I find myself doing energy work in my sleep. Healing others, and myself, during this time of "rest" and having dreams that are so strong, they are barely restful. On advice from my partner, "don't dream," he says. I try, and on those nights I can separate my energy work from my rest time, I rest. It's a funny thing to remind yourself not to dream before you go to sleep, in order to be energized for the next day.
These last few months have been figuring out the new voice inside. It is changing, and I am changing, everyday. I barely recognize myself from when I started doing regular energy work almost 3 years ago now. I love it. It's all I think about and want to share. But, in doing the work, I find that having words for it is tough. It makes me feel like I have lost my voice at times. In actuality, though, I know that I am really in the final stages of finding my real voice for the first time in my life. I have been battling family history, religion, society goals and expectations, judgments from friends, who to be in an office environment, and I would not give up my fight for anything. Knowing myself in this life is the greatest gift and offers the greatest reward. I have learned that I have the courage for the battle against knowledge of self.
Sharing the steeped thoughts of my life as a Psychic Medium.